Week 2, Saturday March 22, 2008

Well, it is hard to update, because I have had no progress. I am still at 201. I do admit that I had a hard time with easter, and all the lovely easter candy. There were a few occasions that I tried and tried and failed. I think that my problem is, was that I was watching the scale, and seeing no change, so I kind of gave up in my mind. The thoughts kept coming back..."you know you want it...you are not losing weight anyway...just eat...just eat." It is hard to keep those thoughts at bay. Another problem that I have is when I cheat a little, I think to myself "you already screwed up, so you might as well make the most of it". I think I am my own worst enemy.

Things I need to do different this week:

• plan and stick to an exercise routine
• if I screw up and cheat, keep it small
• keep positive, and don't give up

Thanks for keeping me motivated. Mackenzie, if you are reading this, I am looking forward to you making a blog. We need each other. I'll support you as much as you are supporting me! Love you all tons!

Jamie

Week One: Saturday, March15th 2008

All in all it has been a good week. I am down to 201 lbs, an astounding 8 lbs in one week! I feel like I am on The Biggest Loser! I have stayed away from my biggest vice: any kind of sugary goodness. I have stayed to the goal, of low carbs and no sugar. With the exception of going out to eat with Brooke at Cafe Rio. I am sure my Pork Quesadilla had many carbs. It is hardest to be good at my work. They have candy & treats on a daily basis. Also every thursday, they serve breakfast of donuts and bagels. I stayed away, and it was hard. One thing that I am doing is wearing a rubberband around my wrist, whenever I have a craving & want to munch, I pull the rubberband, and flick my wrist. It helps to get my mind off my craving. Oh, the pain :). Even though I plan to keep to it next week, I am sure that my weight loss will level off a little next week. But I will keep going. I haven't excersized at all yet, but I will start. I know that I can't keep going at this rate without it. I also am obsessed about weighing myself. I know I do it too often. Usually more than once a day. I know that I need to slow down. Does anyone have any advice on any weight loss supplements? Since I am breast feeding, I have to be picky, but I wouldn't mind advice for when the baby is off the boobie.

To Start: Saturday, March 8th

I am starting out at 209 lbs. I have found that the only thing that has worked for me in the past is cutting carbs. So that is what I am going to do this time. Only I have to be a little careful because I am nursing my Rohnin. I am going to eat staples like salads, eggs, meat, veggies, and a little fruit. I really need to make a goal to increase my water intake, and decrease my diet coke intake. I also need to excersize, but I don't have a plan at this point. I have been a little sick, sore throat and such, so that is next on my list. Find time to excersize. I will keep you posted. Here is me, taken to document this special 'heaviest' occasion. Look forward to the next one in a month.

Purpose

Motivation, at times I have it...but more often I don't. Losing weight is such a personal thing, an embarrassing thing. It is hard to admit the 'Whys?', 'Hows?', and especially the 'How Much's?' But at this point I am to the end. I want to look the way I used to. I look in the mirror, and wonder who that fat girl is looking back at me with an apologetic look on her face. This is my attempt to ask for help. To hopefully gain the support of people I love. Maybe if I admit to them my shortcomings, they can help me to be the best person I can be.

Therefore the purpose of this blog is for me to find the skinny. I invite anyone who is interested to help me along with comments. I think that I need to document my success (and failures). If other people are keeping tags on me, I won't give up. It would be more embarrassing to let other people down, not just myself. It would also be great if others want to join my quest for sharp clavicals, to start their own blog. We can keep tags on each other.

I will update this blog at least once a week with my weight (ugh!), strategies, food plans, excersize goals, successes and failures. I may also add monthly pictures. So please help with my unorthodox goals, or at least just log on to laugh at me, so I can be the one laughing in the end.